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She's nominated for an EMA for Best Dutch Act :)
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So I'm reading Neon Angel right now, and Cherie describes her first rock concert ever, which also happened to be her first time seeing David Bowie live. I think many of you will understand why I was able to relate to it so much :)

I watched this impossibly thin, pale, alien prince singing to me. Not on vinyl, but right there... right in front of my face, this beautiful, hypnotic, strange man was singing to me, and although I could not quite put it into words, I instinctively knew that what I was experiencing was something religious, something profound. The crowd seemed to move as one being, pushing towards the front, a tidal wave of teenage energy, and although I had heard the words coming out of David's mouth a million times, it felt as if I were hearing the words for the first time, each line reaching across the massive amphitheater and falling around me like a meteor shower.

The heat and the frustration, the alienation and the loneliness, the lust and the anxiety and the joy that seemed like it had been building inside of me for years were suddenly unbearable, like the pressure was too much and I felt like a bomb primed to explode, and only David Bowie knew how I felt. His words explained what was deep down inside of me better than I ever could.

To be honest, the "religious experience" aspect of this reminds me more of the second time I saw Hyde live, so this could fit him as well, for me. But the description just reminds me so much of Bill, and the second part reminds me so much of Humanoid and seeing them in Spain. Happy Anniversary, Durch Den Monsun <333 And hey, beautiful ♥_♥

Bootsy Bellows Nightclub West Hollywood (8)

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Still obsessing over this album, yes. I promise I'll post other music again... soonish.


I overlooked this song the first 20 times, probably, that I listened to this album because it's not as catchy or obvious as most of the rest. But then one night, it was like the lyrics broke through the haze and I realized that this song is everything to me right now. It is so rare that I relate so intensely to a song that is actually uplifting ;) The video is also interesting - just now, for this post, is the first time I've ever seen it, but I've been dying to change up my hair again lately.
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Every Mother Counts

Some statistics from their website:

1. Approximately 358,000 women die each year due to complications in pregnancy and childbirth. That's one woman every 90 seconds.

2. For every woman who dies each year in childbirth, 20-30 more suffer from lifelong debilitating disabilities.

3. Pregnancy is the number one cause of death in women, ages 15-19, in the developing world. Nearly 70,000 young women die every year because their bodies are not ready for parenthood.

4. Over 200 million women who would like to choose when they get pregnant don’t have access to family planning.

5. The United States ranks 50th globally in maternal mortality, even though it spends more on health care per capita than any other nation in the world. African American women are four times more likely to die in childbirth than Caucasian women.

From their facebook:

Every Mother Counts is an advocacy and mobilization campaign to increase education and support for maternal mortality reduction globally.

Every Mother Counts seeks to engage new audiences to better understand the challenges and the solutions while encouraging them to take action to improve the lives of girls and women worldwide.

Every Mother Counts was founded by Christy Turlington Burns after the completion of her documentary debut, "No Woman, No Cry" which tells the personal stories of pregnant women and their caregivers in four countries as they try to avoid adding to these troubling statistics.

General Information
Hundreds of thousands of girls and women around the world die every year from complications in pregnancy or childbirth, creating a rippling effect that devastates children, families, and communities. Almost all of these deaths are preventable.

The issue
How you can help

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If I could afford it, I would totally do this, but I'll pass it on in case someone else can :) Just so you guys know, they've also clarified that it isn't just a percentage of this going to PP, it would be the entire amount.

Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] xlickety_splitx at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood
Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] theljstaff at Help Us Support Planned Parenthood

Join us in standing up for reproductive health and education. Planned Parenthood, the organization that delivers reproductive health care, sex education and information to millions of people worldwide, has come under fire in the U.S. lately, with many politicians on both state and federal level seeking to end funding (and in a few cases succeeding).

During the month of May, you can send a specially designed Planned Parenthood vgift to your friends to help support this cause. (And if you need someone to send it to, [livejournal.com profile] frank is always happy to receive gifts!) There are three variations ($1, $5 and $10) for you to choose from, but they'd all look good on your profile when your friends know that you stand by something so important.


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Bif Naked!

I was going to go on and on about her, but watch that video up there ^ and she will say it for me ♥ You can hear bits of some of her music there, but a great example of her music is this song.

I, Bificus was one of my favorite albums when I was in high school, I love absolutely every song on it. One of the things I always liked about Bif Naked's music was that she has absolutely no problem singing obvious love songs about girls (and boys, pretty equally, hehe). She's also pretty bad ass, and I was really into anything involving strong women kicking ass back then XD And now, of course, but back then, I never thought much about why I enjoyed it so much, or how much what they were doing meant. Her music has given me a lot of strength at times when I needed it most.

I also find her to be a really inspiring person in other ways. She's overcome many issues with her health, including breast cancer, but her outlook on the world and everything in it is beautiful. She has an entire song about her guilt over killing a bee!
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Baseball games!

It's so funny - I am probably the last person anyone would ever think of when they think of sports, any kind of sports, lol. I don't care that much about any of them, including baseball, certainly not enough to watch them on TV.

But I love actually going to baseball games. I'm even still a bit fuzzy on some of the rules and details involved, but I get the basic point enough to really enjoy myself. And there's just something about the atmosphere! It's never aggressive the way it seems like it is with other sports (or at least, it hasn't been in my experience). Everyone seems to just have a really good time. There's also the smell. The combination of beer, hot dogs, peanuts... something about all of them together just puts me in a really good mood :) I never miss hot dogs more than I do at baseball games!

I think that in all, it feels great to be part of something of a really fun tradition that's been around so long.

Yesterday, I went with my mom to see the Tigers play the Texas Rangers. We lost terribly, and I am now coated in aloe because I managed to forget my sunscreen (horror!!!) but it was still a lot of fun. Also helps that I was supposed to work, and my supervisor gave me the day off for it last minute :3
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[livejournal.com profile] macfrosty is doing this, and it looks like a great incentive to post :) I thought about using her idea, which is "100 Things That Have Shaped Me", but today was a really nice day in many ways, and I'm feeling better about life than I have in a very, very long time. I don't know how long it will last, but I've decided to make my theme:

"100 Things That Make Me Feel Better About The World"

Starting with:


I have never gardened before, but today I bought some zucchini seeds and planted them with my mom :) This spring/summer, I'm going to help her around the yard and she's going to teach me how to properly garden. I'm excited about it! I'm going to buy more seeds and hopefully grow a lot of veggies to add to my diet this summer. It felt so great to spend time out in the sun, and I will really enjoy having things to care for <3

(Btw, my credit union charged me not one, but TWO fees for my issues while shopping on Sunday. I emailed them and they refunded me one charge, but wouldn't refund the other. Sucks, but today was so wonderful that I can't even bring myself to care.)
4am_secret: (HYDE // *kisses*)
I'm home ;_; Byeeeeeee, L'Arc and my amazing weekend ;_;

There are more pictures, but I am already behind on working on my homework that was due yesterday because nothing inside of me seems to want to accept that it's all over, and further, everything inside of me is rebelling against the fact that I have to work at 9:30 tomorrow morning. Seriously feel like I am dealing with Post L'Arc Depression or something ;_;

For now, I will say that the concert was phenomenal, Hyde's dancing was the closest I have ever come to a religious experience, they performed Niji and I cried and was left completely wobbly for hours after, AND I FINALLY got my feather from when they blow them out into the audience at the end of that song. Two, even! Thanks to the wonderful and amazing [livejournal.com profile] tmsj's perseverance ;) I'm going to try to make them into earrings ♥

Speaking of wonderful and amazing people, this weekend was positively loaded with them, and you will hear more about that later when I have time to write up something better than this, but [livejournal.com profile] nepenthes59 would be at the top of that list. I don't think words exist that could describe how much this weekend meant to me, and I owe every single second of it to her :))) I thanked her like a million times this weekend, but I feel like it will never, ever be enough!
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A little while ago, [livejournal.com profile] eirenebellatrix asked about me posting some of my work from my recent classes where I had to do some digital illustration for the first time ever. I've been meaning to share some of it, and since my entries lately have been so RL-heavy and work and blahhh, I thought now would be a good time! :)

Cut for images )
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Last night's episode of Supernatural was the first episode since... I think Route 666 that I remember actually not liking. It was the same people behind it too, right? Usually I can ignore the way the show treats women or look past it, but that episode made it really hard not to (I found myself asking, more than once, "Are they... actually doing this?"), and I worry that it seems like it's going to carry over a bit.

I got one of my tax returns! \o/ Also, I had a bit of leftover money from my financial aid. That has NEVER happened to me! I get so jealous whenever Natalie and Kyle talk about the money they get, because usually I end up having to pay some out of pocket. It wasn't tons or anything, but every penny counts. I also applied a few more places *running out of fingers to cross*

As my reward for, I dunno, not being broke anymore, I got myself the twin app finally :) I couldn't have my name, so I went with Cupcake Bandit instead, hehe. I know it's dumb, but I'm sort of amused by the coincidence of Bill ~revealing~ his newly silver/grey hair a few days after I find my first XD
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Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] electricdruid at The fiasco continues

ACTA in a Nutshell –

What is ACTA?  ACTA is the Anti-Counterfeiting Trade Agreement. A new intellectual property enforcement treaty being negotiated by the United States, the European Community, Switzerland, and Japan, with Australia, the Republic of Korea, New Zealand, Mexico, Jordan, Morocco, Singapore, the United Arab Emirates, and Canada recently announcing that they will join in as well.

Why should you care about ACTA? Initial reports indicate that the treaty will have a very broad scope and will involve new tools targeting “Internet distribution and information technology.”

What is the goal of ACTA? Reportedly the goal is to create new legal standards of intellectual property enforcement, as well as increased international cooperation, an example of which would be an increase in information sharing between signatory countries’ law enforcement agencies.

Essential ACTA Resources

  • Read more about ACTA here: ACTA Fact Sheet
  • Read the authentic version of the ACTA text as of 15 April 2011, as finalized by participating countries here: ACTA Finalized Text
  • Follow the history of the treaty’s formation here: ACTA history
  • Read letters from U.S. Senator Ron Wyden wherein he challenges the constitutionality of ACTA: Letter 1 | Letter 2 | Read the Administration’s Response to Wyden’s First Letter here: Response
  • Watch a short informative video on ACTA: ACTA Video
  • Watch a lulzy video on ACTA: Lulzy Video

Say NO to ACTA. It is essential to spread awareness and get the word out on ACTA.

Via Tumblr

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This article is really great. I am sick to death of the attitude I see so much, that if you can't just deal with things, get over things, find humor in things, not be offended by things, take the high ground, etc. etc. etc., there is something wrong with you. I am surrounded by people in RL who have pretty rigid expectations for me of how I should react to any given issue and how I should live. Everyone reacts to everything in different ways, and what one person thinks is no big deal might be a VERY big deal to someone else, and no one has the right to take that away from them. Most especially if that someone else experiences it in some more direct way, but likewise, I'm also sick of people who have been through similar experiences and come out better for it acting like everyone should be able to.

I'm super irritated with this right now because I've seen it so much in the past few days especially, for various reasons. The one time I look at ONTD of my own volition, I see an article about how RuPaul thinks it's totally okay to use the word 'tranny' howeveryouplease, even as an insult, with millions of comments about how oversensitive everyone is anymore and how everyone should just develop a thick skin. I'm sorry (not really though), but fuck that. This world is shit for the most part, but there are so many things that would be even worse if people hadn't gotten hurt, gotten offended, and gotten angry. Ignorant is uneducated, and that can be fixed.

Sometimes I just get really frustrated with how passive and docile we're all expected to be. It's great for some people if they can laugh about things and remain unaffected, I envy that so much, but not everyone can feel that way, and many don't have the choice.


Jan. 13th, 2012 10:22 pm
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Originally posted by [livejournal.com profile] mountain_hiker at Wikipeda
Please share and reshare all over the social networks! Encourage Wikipedia to go dark next week!

Wikipedia Blackout: Urge Wikipedia To Protest Censorship
Quick request: Wikipedia is considering going dark to protest SOPA and PIPA, the Internet censorship bills.

It'd be huge news, jar rank-and-file Internet users out of complacency, and serve as a turning point in the effort to beat these bills.

Several sites are considering going dark next week -- Reddit's already pledged to do so, but to have the impact it'll take to kill SOPA and PIPA, we need much broader support. A blackout by Wikipedia could be what finally kills these bills.

Will sign you on at right to urge Wikipedia to go on strike to protest censorship? (You'll also generate an email to your lawmakers, with the language at right.)
PETITION TO WIKIPEDIA: We encourage Wikipedia to "go dark" to proest the Internet censorship bills pending before Congress. Millions of Americans would take notice, and it could be what finally turns the corner in the fight against SOPA and PIPA.
Please sign at right to urge Wikipedia to go dark, and to generate an anti-SOPA/PIPA letter to your lawmakers.

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Here they are! )

Next year will include many more books, for sure. Happy New Year, everyone!! <333

4am_secret: (Stock // Lovely day for a dear diary)
Oh hey, it's the last day of 2011 o__________o I didn't even realize until my mom pointed it out earlier. I'm going to be starting the year with an overdraft from my credit union; so fitting!

I've been lost in reading the rest of the Hunger Games trilogy. Do any of you ever experience that sense of grief when you finish a book or series you've been completely engaged in? It always makes me feel so sad to be back in the real world, and I just want to wallow in it for awhile. I think I do it with really good TV shows, too, when I watch them all at once. Reality, meh.

Jumbled thoughts on the books )
4am_secret: (Buffy // Willow)
I hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and/or weekend <3

I had a very Buffy-ful holiday :) My mom did end up tracking down the seventh season for me, after hitting a few dead-ends. I can't believe so few places carry those DVD's anymore! The person she talked to in one place had never even heard of the show. (I weep, I WEEP!) She found it at Barnes and Noble, though, thank goodness. She also picked up the second and third volumes of season 8 for me, since I haven't read them and they're putting out season 9 now. So behind! I hope to marathon all 7 seasons of the show now that I own the final DVD's; I've only watched the last season the one time when it aired, and I haven't seen the whole show in far too long. ♥

After watching so many movies this year, I've decided that next year needs to be my year of books. I really need to read far more, and I'm disappointed with how little I managed this year. So I am determined to finally finish The Count of Monte Cristo before the end of the year, and I will start the new year fresh with a new book. The last day and a half has been spent doing nothing but reading and sleeping, and it has been glorious.

I'm enjoying using this week I have off from class as a bit of a breather from the internet, and fandom.

Oh, also: I cannot believe Hyde is releasing an autobiography next month! I honestly do not know if I want to read it or not. I've always sort of appreciated the air of semi-mystery around him, and how protective he's been of his private life. If it's put in front of me, translated, I might check it out, but I don't know if I'll seek it out otherwise!
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I'm thinking that I'm happy that:

- my belly is full of Jimmy John's and Mountain Dew
- I have chocolate milk, egg nog, orange juice, cute little classic glass bottles of Coke, and more cookies (since my dad made my others last night *grumble*) in the fridge, and hot cocoa in the cupboard, and I bought a frozen pizza for dinner. I LOVE DELICIOUS FOOD AND DELICIOUS BEVERAGES.
- my unemployment stuff worked itself out and they made up the amount I was shorted last time on the check I got this week
- today's Merlin is downloading \o/
- my homework is literally only submitting my final illustration which will take 3 seconds and then this class is completely over, and I have a high A :D I think I'll post some of my work soon if anyone wants to see it, I liked how some of it turned out.
- I can read all day tomorrow

I've been a little worried about some health issues I'm having (that I'm pretty sure are due to these fucked up periods that I'm still having, or whatever is causing them), so I've decided to start taking B-complex vitamins to see if they help at all. I really hope they do.

Lastly, I'm sooooo nervous that my speech class starts on Monday, but I just need to take a deep breath and power my ass through it. Once it's over, I'll never have to do it again. Any ideas on persuasive speeches I could do for it? I need it to be something I can feel comfortable with in case I have to give it around one of my parents, so I'd like to avoid most things involving sexuality, religion, and probably politics LOL -_- I'd actually kinda like to do something fun, if we're allowed.

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Are you still living there
Walking the streets with your hollow stare
You say there's loneliness everywhere
So we have nothing to lose
The music plays all day long
And sorrow looks beautiful
And lovers seem mystical
Tomorrow a new point of view
These bright lights will bend to make blue
Now this can all look new to you